change
In all my years of education, I've begun experiences at various schools with the understanding that I do not know what I need to know. There has always been some degree or some curriculum that I must conquer in order to move on to the next phase of life, which likely has another degree or curriculum to conquer.
The past two weeks have been very instrumental in my development... they are signs of the growth and change that I will undergo in the next few years here at Anderson. This time, it's not that I don't know what I need to know - it's that I am not who I need to be.
My character, my skills, my desires, my abilities - these are not what they need to be if I am to be a pastor, a minister of the grace of Jesus Christ for a lost and hurting world. My mindset is not in tune well enough with the Lord; I am not as dedicated as I need to be; there is so much for me to learn, both in knowledge and in process. Who I am is about to undergo a large change...
This morning at chapel I prayed, I communed with God during the time of communion. I was beginning to perceive these things more clearly at that point. What God communicated to me is just this: all I need to do is be willing; all I need to be is available to the Lord and open for change. The rest will follow... there is time.
How does this translate into the relationships and things that already exist in my life? I don't believe that my current relationships will be forced to change as I change. God works all things for the good of those who love him - surely the good that has been developing in my life will continue to develop in the years to come. I am hopeful for all things; I look forward to all things; now I look forward to my own personal development, which I had not truthfully considered very much until coming to Anderson.
Lead me, Lord.
The past two weeks have been very instrumental in my development... they are signs of the growth and change that I will undergo in the next few years here at Anderson. This time, it's not that I don't know what I need to know - it's that I am not who I need to be.
My character, my skills, my desires, my abilities - these are not what they need to be if I am to be a pastor, a minister of the grace of Jesus Christ for a lost and hurting world. My mindset is not in tune well enough with the Lord; I am not as dedicated as I need to be; there is so much for me to learn, both in knowledge and in process. Who I am is about to undergo a large change...
This morning at chapel I prayed, I communed with God during the time of communion. I was beginning to perceive these things more clearly at that point. What God communicated to me is just this: all I need to do is be willing; all I need to be is available to the Lord and open for change. The rest will follow... there is time.
How does this translate into the relationships and things that already exist in my life? I don't believe that my current relationships will be forced to change as I change. God works all things for the good of those who love him - surely the good that has been developing in my life will continue to develop in the years to come. I am hopeful for all things; I look forward to all things; now I look forward to my own personal development, which I had not truthfully considered very much until coming to Anderson.
Lead me, Lord.
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